Please, do forgive me for turning emo all of the sudden. I do blame the sedative effects of alcohol. But yeah, let me indulge in my despair for a while and post this little poem I have written after listening to Stephen Speaks’s Out of My League.
Infatuated III
She’s a thief.
Through the countless times I sat and stared,
admiring her unrivalled beauty,
without a warning,
like a kunoichi, she had stolen my heart.
I have no idea when it happened.
Was it the cafeteria?
Was it the hallways?
Was it the bus stop?
Regardless - she had captured me.
Killer was no longer fly.
Fishball, curang, PS…
Curry puff, puppies and even MV…
They seem trivial in comparison.
My chinkie talents lie in planning.
I can effortlessly plan millions of scenarios.
Every single possiblity I can think of.
Except for one - myself.
Frozen and stunned,
like Ichigo in Kenpachi’s killzone,
like Harold in the elevator.
Unable to speak.
Unable to act.
Perfectly planned scenarios turned sour.
Timing goes off,
my eyes met hers for a moment,
terkena SKL.
Shattered was my illusions.
The illusions of the perfect romance,
like Suffle, like Love Hina,
like Kakyuusei, like Haruhi.
Stumbled and grasping for a second chance.
I want to believe in continues.
Sat and drowned in stout.
Suffocated my lungs with Kent.
Induced myself into a state of philosophical self-narration.
Battlefields of the future are now trivial.
Drifting in Carbon is now a waste of time.
Initial D is now a honest waste of money.
I want change. I want improvement.
I was complacent with my life,
now I want more.
Isn’t it strange?
How a moment of dispair can affect one?
How it can change a person’s outlook on life?
How it can make one desire more from oneself?
Sitting here, slowly becoming sober.
Listening to Out of My League.
I have decided.
She is NOT out of my league.
I will not let it end this way.Â
Well, that’s it for today. I shall now go to sleep and wallow in my self-helplessness. ^_^